總結

一連串的事件後我發現

最沮喪的事情其實是
對原本充滿鬥志動力期待的事情
卻遲疑卻步了

更糟的是
未知的未來
讓心情顯的平靜卻又不踏實

可是...
I DON'T WANT TO BE TOLD "JUST ENJOY LIFE" WHEN I FEEL LIKE WORKING HARD AT MY 50s...THAT'S PATHETIC...AND HORRIFYING...AND SCARY....AND SUCKS...